Why was I am cheated or still?

I WAS sincere devotee of Shirdi Baba. I stopped smoking on his name and he gave me the will. I use to see him daily at a new place, where I wouldn't expect. But now he plays a lot. I am now 28 and looking for a better job since in the current job where I can earn 13k after struggling a lot. Me and and my friend attended a lot of interviews and now he got selected. To be open and frank the fact I am much qualified than him on all aspects. I am masters in computers and he is commerce. My communication-is average and he is too fair. In Skills I stay ahead. But he got offer since he is old employee of the company for 45k. Please do not reply that time should come because even the time should come on time. My question is why BABA is making me to suffer. I have pleaded, cried and more. My attempt to government job also failed which came so nearer to me. Now a days suicide thoughts comes in to my mind since every thing is a failure for me. I am just a human being and sure expect some thing from my Guru.I didn't seek car or money or bungalow. A job which is status of society and for living. Do I still need to worship him? Is this the result for sai devotee?